First doc appointment

Today I went and saw the nurse practitioner who handles all the pregnancies at Upwood clinic. She was so super nice and I got all my blood and lab work done. I even had to get a tetanus shot and flu shot, which I must say, shots don't hurt as bad as I remember. I think my last tetanus was when I was 12 or so and today was a realization...holy moly cow....I'm 27! I better get one done. I didn't hear the heart beat or anything, it was more of just a consultation about being pregnant, and we just brushed on that since I'm like so experienced with this being my
THIRD (HOLY COW I'M GOING TO HAVE THREE KIDS) and where I was going to have this baby. I was relieved they are giving me the option to have it at the local hospital which is an English hospital even though I'm having a C-section. So YAY to that! Other wise the other medical hospital is about an hour away and that would be tough with kids in school and all that. So I am going to make an ultra sound appointment next week and find out exactly how far along I am. YAY!

Now is my beyond cheesy confession. I so am getting emotional with this pregnancy. I wasn't too thrilled even though I had this inclination I was pregnant before I took the pregnancy test and it was a positive about this whole thing. I had a lot of things bugging me about it. First, I was so looking forward to having both girls in school ALL DAY come September. I was going to take some more classes, maybe find a part time job since I love to socialize, just have even more "Bobbie" time then I have now and I was set on this. I also feared the age gap between Hannah and the baby, 4 years is a lot when Madison and Hannah are just 22 months. They are so close now and I fear the baby will be labeled as the "annoying baby baby" (I don't know if it's a boy or girl so hence the name baby baby). Then having to rearrange the house was like on my mind since I like how it is now. And lastly but pretty important, my loss of sleep!!! How I love putting the girls to bed and knowing they only get up at night to use the toilet and that's something they don't need my help with. All these petty little things were getting to me and then I realized they were all really not very important and me just being selfish on this baby that we are going to blessed with. So many couples try to have kids and are unsuccessful and I was just taking this little miracle for granted. It's been super nice to have Dan and the girls so excited. I think back to when Dan and I were engaged and I wanted 4 and he wanted 2. Then I switched after Madison to being DONE DONE DONE and he wanting 4. After Hannah we felt like our little family was complete. Today as I had time this morning to just think alone, I realized my family isn't complete. I also so look forward to Dan being home for the baby. He'll actually get to see the baby when he/she starts crawling, first steps, first eating solids all that fun baby stuff he missed out with the girls. He saw bits and pieces of Madison and Hannah he about missed all together being deployed so much. I am more then excited for this new addition we will have come!!! Now just the wait to see how far along exactly I am and then to know if it will be a boy or girl!