Heart break

I can't get home. It is just insane! I am now flying out hopefully on Sunday but who knows...it could be cancelled just like my 2 other flights. I had a moment of break down....yes....I am fortunate I am at my parent's house but I have 2 little girls and a husband at home that I miss very much. People keep trying to point out I'm not one of those stranded....but I am....this is not my home anymore....my home is with my Dan, Madison and Hannah. I saw that my flight had no longer been canceled after I had seen it had been cancelled online, and on the phone as well as the United man at the airport...and so I rescheduled it along with my mom's flight and then was furious when I found out the news. I called as soon as I saw they had opened up the flight again....the lady was short with me, she didn't let me continue before she put me on hold, she found me a ticket that would leave tomorrow but there was no room for my mom. I quickly said a prayer, called my dad and felt that I shouldn't leave in case I was stranded alone with Bellies since my mom wouldn't be able to fly until Friday. I handed the phone to her since I was getting short with the woman, my mom was calm, understanding with the lady trying to help and she found a flight that would leave Sunday morning with only one connection change in San Fransisco....so much easier than the flights I have been on lately which have been sending us to every city in the US and Europe. I had a sudden feeling of calmness....if we should be able to leave....this is the way to go. I feel for those stranded...I don't know when I will be able to see my family again....the news doesn't help. I want to cry....I tend to think about if only I had just left from SLC like I was originally going to do....I would be home with my girls and my husband. I told them the news today that I wasn't going to be home....Hannah was upset. All I wanted to do was give her a big hug. Madison was asking why....I wish I could hug her too. Dan is amazing. So understanding, so calm, telling me it will be alright and not to worry and just have fun. I've had my fun though here....I just to be with my family.