Some advice

It's the kids break between terms here...they are off for nearly 3 weeks with that and then the wedding and some May bank holiday. I have the big girls at the day camp they went to last summer...they are only going today, Thursday and Friday. Dan has taken leave...I didn't want to do the final inspection, so he did it for the house. I didn't want to deal with the landlady that was horrible, so horrible, I'd instantly get that tune from The Wizard of Oz when the lady is riding her bike after she took Toto...so I left as soon as I saw her. I'm running on about 4 hours sleep the past 60 hours...woo hoo! Cleaning the house took FOREVER...I painted it too that's why...we're really not that dirty of people. Anyway...so yesterday I HAD to go to the Commissary to get some food. The girls needed packed lunches for camp and I just didn't have anything at home. So off we go...all 4 kids...I hate going with just one...okay so Abs I don't mind taking. I was standing in line...Bells is running all over because her two older sisters are egging her on...Abs is just chilling in her car seat in the cart and this lady behind me says, "Those can't all be yours! You look to young (I love it when people tell me how young I look...I'm hitting 30 at the end of this year...I'm having anxiety attacks about the whole thing. No, it's not because I'm one of those people who still want to be a teenager...I just hate the thought of getting old and aging and then dying...yeah...I know...I have issues about death...it scares me no matter what.) Wow! You have your hands full!" She then told me very nicely how it's not looked down upon to put a harness on your toddlers in England. I usually get annoyed when random strangers tell me how to raise my children but she said it so kindly and she could see that Bells was a handful and was just trying to give friendly advice to a woman with 4 kids...(seriously...a year being single...I'm going to have to find me a whole lot of babysitters around this village.) I laughed and told I her how I did have one at home and have been meaning to try it. I just always forget it...Madison and Hannah were just content staying in the cart...not my tornado of a girl, Bells...she wants to explore and she's just so darn cute, I HAVE to let my free spirited child run free...or maybe it's just the fact I'm so tired all the time, I just don't have the energy to care what people think and I now have the frame of mind, as long as they aren't touching something gross (although, I sometimes find Bells just deciding to randomly crawl on the floor at the store...that grosses me out but I usually have my hands full with Abs so she just continues and I just look away. We then come home and I bathe her in a tub full of bleach (not really...just lots of soap.)) I'm learning a lot more patience...or it's probably more like the attitude of just letting it go...picking my battles with my kids. I don't want my kids to be perfect (ok..sometimes I do). I think life would then be pretty boring. And I just realized this is the most scattered post ever...well probably not ever but I have 5 million things going on in my mind...10 million I need to do and I'm blogging...hmmm....I think I have some priority issues...I will blame lack of sleep right now. I'm so looking forward to tomorrow...London...no kids...no husband (I love going places with him...not London...he stresses and I just don't enjoy it as much) just some adult time...me time....it's nice to remember who I am once in awhile...without spit up on me, or a kid needing to be on my lap or 2 that ask questions galore...I'm not just mom. I'm also looking forward to having an organized, clean house...maybe some day....soon...hopefully. I'm starting to get so antsy to just make all the boxes go away, I want to just toss what's inside...that's probably not the best idea...but I figure...if I'm not missing it yet, I can't possibly ever need it again...maybe??? Yeah...I don't think that's going to work. I'm just going to have to find a place for everything....